Pep Talk

My first track race of the season, 2013.

First night of racing, first race, 2013. What you can’t see is that I’m so scared that my legs are shaking.

Race License: check

Track Pass: check

Velodrome Bike Parking: check

Gear: check

Sweet bike: check

I have all the gear I’ll need for the season. My bike is good to go. I have lycra for days and a brand new pair of track gloves that I’m in love with.

I’m an hour away from being picked up to go to my first night of structured training for the season, and I’m so nervous I can’t sit down. My palms ache. I had to force some food into my stomach so I won’t get lightheaded at practice… I’ve been so nervous, I haven’t eaten all day.

It’s funny. This will be my fourth season racing, I’m captain of a team, and I’m still nervous.

I am telling myself now that I’m nervous because I didn’t train enough (I’ve been traveling and working a lot). I’m going to embarrass myself. All the new women are going to be so much faster than I am. It’s going to be me off the back, all alone, looking stupid. I’m listing excuses to not go.

It’s funny because I remember that one season where all I did was train and I was a total beast… and I sold myself the same negativity and excuses then as I am now.

When other people say these things, I have a pep talk for them. When it comes to myself, I just pace and worry. The koolaid hasn’t been self-serve.

But today, for some reason, I really need it. So here goes:

Anna, girl, you just need to get out there.

Every season has a first training session. Every season has a first race. They are always terrifying- you just need to jump in and get started.

You only get faster and better from here.

Racing is so good for you, and you know it. It makes you stronger, physically and mentally. It makes those around you stronger, too, which is why you’re always dragging your friends into it. Best of all, it gives you a way of appreciating and respecting strength in yourself and others. And you love that. It makes you so happy.

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First criterium, 2014. I got lapped twice and was so sick that I was puking on the course… I still had a blast and learned a ton from it. 

Remember that in those races where you’re falling off the back, being lapped like crazy, that you’re still having fun. You’re cheering yourself on in your head, thinking of ways to get better for next time. You’re cheering on your friends lapping you because, goddamn, they are so much faster than last season. And that’s so awesome.

Remember every race where you’ve surprised yourself. Remember when you held on longer than you thought you could and how awesome that felt.

First day of track practice, 2015. I can't remember being happier that year. We blasted Prince over the speakers at NSC and tore up our legs.

First day of track practice, 2015. We blasted Prince over the speakers at NSC and tore up our legs. It was so wonderful.

You have waited all winter for today. Rubber is finally meeting boards. Last year, entering turn one for the first time that season felt like coming home again. That’s what you get to do today, and that’s pretty cool.

Girl, this season is going to be so rad. You’re going to have so much fun. You always do. You love it. 

Get out there and make those legs burn. Turn yourself inside out. And do it all with a smile. You deserve it.

Eat those vegetables. Try really hard. Get it, girl.

Anna

Anna "Mama Duck" Schwinn

Anna “Mama Duck” Schwinn

6 Reasons You Should NEVER Try Road Racing

Even though we personally think road racing is pretty great, that’s no reason for you to. Here’s our top six reasons you should absolutely never under any circumstances try out road racing…

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You must absolutely have the most expensive, lightweight, and top-of-the-line bike to compete.

Your aluminum or steel drop bar bike simply won’t work in race settings. The components are old, your chain could use some lube, and the brake pads squeak when you brake hard. Hell, the whole thing would probably fall to pieces before the start gun went off. Everyone knows that carbon bikes preceded the Tour de France, after all.

Steel is real, yo.

Steel is real, yo.

Hills.

What are you supposed to do about the hills? Ride up them? Riding up hills on your bike makes your legs and lungs burn, and sometimes even makes you sweaty. Those kinds of feelings should only be experienced within the sterile environment of an indoor gym.

It will be hard.

There’s a saying, “Nothing worth having comes easy.” That saying doesn’t apply here. You’ve seen those photos online of people’s “pain faces” during races. The faces that communicate that wearer is sliding down a slide made of cheese graters, or just drank an entire bottle of hot sauce. The incomparable glory that comes with finishing your first race or getting on the podium is not worth the temporary pain.

You won’t know anyone there.

The real reason road racers wear matching kits is to identify who their friends are. Otherwise they’d never be able to recognize each other with helmets and sunglasses on. It’s like whale calls for people. The only time people on teams interact with outsiders is when they go all sharks vs. jets on each other. *snaps*

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It’s too dangerous.

Imagine hurtling around corners and down hills in a pack of cyclists with nothing to protect you besides some lycra and a helmet. Better stick to bike paths. No one ever gets hurt riding there. Between the dogs on leashes strung across the bike lane, runners wearing earbuds, and close calls with other cyclists, you’re better off there than in a bike race. Bike paths are safe. Or better yet, hang up your bike helmet and lean your bike against your living room wall. The safest way to use your bike is to sit on the couch and lovingly gaze at it. No one ever dies from inactivity.

It’s your first criterium or road race and everyone else will be faster than you.

It is a scientific fact that every local race field is made up of riders who just decided that they didn’t feel like going pro. When faced with numerous sponsorships to choose from, fame, and international glory they were like, “nah, I’d rather do the local race circuit.” Better quit while you’re ahead and avoid racing with those monsters forever.

Photo credit: Matthew Pastick (far right)

From left to right: Renee getting dropped in every Tuesday Night World, Renee getting mostly dropped in every Tuesday Night World, and Renee mostly keeping up in every Tuesday Night World. (photos taken over 3 year span)

 

**Most photos by: Matthew Pastick

Koochella Beginner Women’s (Trans & Non-Binary Inclusive) Road Clinic

In anticipation of our first week of sanctioned road racing in Minnesota, this Sunday 13 women grabbed their road bikes and headed out to Fort Snelling for Koochella’s second annual Beginner Women’s (Trans & Non-Binary Inclusive) Road Race Clinic. We covered everything from what race categories are, to equipment, to race skills and what to expect on race day. The women present ranged from racers with 1-2 seasons under their belt who wanted to strengthen their skills, to completely beginner women who are excited to sign up for their first races this season! Local crushers Erin Young, Tiana “T-Bits” Johnson, and Denise Ward helped out with tips, suggestions, and in assisting with drills. Huge thanks to everyone who showed up or helped out! We’re SO stoked to see some of you at crits and road races this week! If you’re attending or racing this week and see any of these women, be sure to give them a high five and cheer them on! #moreismore
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Interview with Zoe Leverant of Formula Femme, Brooklyn

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When I wrote Koochella’s “So You Want To Start A Women’s Bike Racing Team,” I did it after speaking with the women of what would become Formula Femme, a new women’s track team in Brooklyn. Here was a group of women who were basically exactly where we were when we started our team, with the same optimistic goals for improving their community and velodrome.

What was exciting was that this was the third or fourth group of women who had contacted us looking for advice. At a time when communities are scratching their heads and trying to figure out how to grow their women’s field, here were multiple organizations of women from all parts of the US (and UK) with little to no racing experience who wanted to take on this charge. They want to join their communities as forces for positive change, to be ambassadors and new energy for the new women racers that their communities said they desperately wanted.

It should be easy, right? Plug them into the community and let them rock out. Everyone wins. Everyone should be stoked. Right?

As we’ve worked with them to help them get established and organized, we’ve unfortunately watched them go through the same struggles Koochella went through when we were trying to get ourselves together. It’s hard to build the women’s field in parallel to building your team and yourselves as new athletes. It’s even more challenging when you’re faced with outside pressure and negativity. But in speaking with Zoë Leverant, Captain of Formula Femme, it’s clear that the organization’s white hot passion for cycling and desire to bring new people into the sport is pushing them forward.

Given the familiar experiences, we thought it would be important to interview Zoë in order to capture a beginner women’s team at the cusp of their first season. These experiences, for as intense as they are for those in the midst of them, are not unique to this team. They represent a pattern many new women’s teams seem to experience.

For women seeking out a similar path, her experiences serve as a reference to show that the obstacles are shared. You’re certainly not alone in your work to overcome them. And they can be overcome.

To those with a more external perspective, there is an opportunity to recognize these obstacles and work to consciously remove them. There are champions of the sport on the cusp of joining the community everywhere- and we can all do a better job in setting them up for success.

With that all said, there is a lot to be excited for in NYC women’s track racing. Formula Femme’s got big goals, and they’ve got the drive to knock them out of the park. We can’t wait for them to join the track racing community.

Get stoked.

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ANNA SCHWINN: The story that’s compelling right now on an National amateur competitive level is women getting into sport full-bore from scratch, from nothing. USA Cycling and every single Local Association for USAC is scratching their heads right now, like “Where do we find women? Why can’t we just inject them into our races and have them stay?”

Honestly, if that’s how easy you think it is, you’re missing all of these larger, more complex political issues that surround racing and the racing community. So it is important to tell the story of beginner teams, especially yours and where you are right now where, “everyone is telling us that they want us around, but they aren’t backing us up and we need support.” It’s the same story over and over again, with every women’s team like this I’ve talked to. That’s kind of the story I think is valuable.

So Zoë, we’ve never actually met.

ZOË LEVERANT: I know! I feel like we’ve spent hours together. I guess we have, just on Gchat.

ANNA: I just think it’s a funny way to start the discussion. I’ve never met you. That’s the context for all this. I don’t know you. You wanted to start a bike team and I got an email from you one day.

What led up to that? Why on earth would you want to start a women’s track team from scratch? You’ve never raced track, right?

ZOË: No, I’ve never raced track. When the team started I was the only member who had actually been on a velodrome—I’d done some of Pink Rhino’s clinics last year and loved it. The grit, how streamlined it is, the concentration you have to have. It was like no other kind of cycling that I’d done before. But because of having trouble finding a bike and other things that were going on in my life, I never actually got around to racing.

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The conversation that led to starting the team happened at FWOD Brooklyn, which is a weekly WTF social ride that started in Oakland, CA and has a chapter here. I was talking one night with another woman about her new Bianchi track bike, and she was super excited about taking it out to the track to race. I was like, “Yeah, I want to get my shit together and race this year, maybe we can do it together!” And it went from there.

ANNA: This ride, I think that people don’t understand the importance of rides like this.

ZOË: What’s really important about FWOD is that it’s not where we go on intense training rides, although we’ll do that together outside the ride. Rather, it’s a place to meet incredible women who love bikes and want to ride bikes and talk about bikes, and need a little bit of a break from the male domination of urban cycling. There’s nothing better than hanging out with other women who are also excited about cycling, and getting excited about it together, on our terms.

ANNA: Totally. This ride has been stoking you. So you end up at the track. You dig track. Cool. Why would you turn around and want to not just race, but come back women a crew of women?

ZOË: So when I was having that conversation with another FWOD member about racing, someone else overheard us and said, “Oh my god, I want to come, too!” And then even more women were like, “I want to go to the track!” It took maybe five minutes for half the ride to sign up. We thought maybe it would make sense to just make it official and start a team.

ANNA: Is that surprising? It sounds like it was like this easy thing. Why were you so successful?

ZOË: We are successful because FWOD is a built-in community of women who love cycling. We not only trust each other, we’ve raced alley cats together, some of us have raced cross together, so we know that we’re serious about bikes and about racing. We were able to get it up and running so quickly and with such a large team because we already had a community to draw from.

ANNA: How many women are on your team right now?

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ZOË: Ten.

ANNA: And you’re not intimidated by the racing- which is language I hear around why women don’t join the sport. Intimidation doesn’t seem to even factor into it. What is concerning you at this point? What’s the toughest thing you’re dealing with right now?

ZOË: Probably the money. All of us have been busting ass and staying up too late and probably slacking off a little bit at work because we’re all so excited to get this team off the ground. We’ve been able to bring some incredible sponsors on board. Obviously All-City signing on was a huge deal. Our shop, Silk Road Cycles, couldn’t wait to help us out—they specifically wanted to support a women’s team. Hold Fast and Verge have also been super enthusiastic. But at the end of the day there’s still just a lot of straight cash expenditure that is really hard on our riders.

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ANNA: For context, it’s not like you’re all equipped at this point. You’re not established racers with an accumulated well of parts and knowledge and gear as a team you can draw from.

ZOË: Not at all. When we started the team, only three of us had track-legal bikes. Some of us don’t own any lycra, or have never ridden clipless. And we don’t think that should prevent a rider from racing as seriously as she wants to. Track is cheap, but the startup costs are still prohibitive. Most of us are messengers, students, or artists. It might have been a little naive of us to think we’d be able to offset more of the costs, but we really believed we’d able to translate more of our enthusiasm, and what we have to offer, into support.

ANNA: The enthusiasm gap is certainly something Koochella ran into early on and you’re like, “This is going to be so cool! This is going to be cool for you! This is going to be cool for us! This is going to be cool for the community!” And everyone is like, “Hey… cool… girls…” Like a pat on the head.

ZOË: This is something that women who are trying to address gender disparity in any field deal with. People want us to be present, but on their terms, which are never really made clear. Everyone is asking why there aren’t more women in cycling, but when we say “Hi, we’re here, we’ve got our shit together but we need your help, we need you to show up,” the people who could make a real difference, either in terms of actual sponsorship or public influence, say “No,” and don’t tell us why. You can’t have it both ways.

ANNA: I’m having flashbacks to our first year. Like, “Oh! You have self confidence! That sucks. Let me take some of that away from you.”

ZOË: It’s so irritating! That’s the other big frustration we’re dealing with besides money, people criticizing us for wanting to do this in an all-or-nothing way. Yeah, we’re new to velodrome racing, but we’re not just random people. We have significant ties to the local community and we don’t see anything wrong with being enthusiastic or asking for exactly what we want. We are the first women’s track team in our area and so we want to set the baseline high, so that the next generation of teams can build on it and do even more than we’re doing. If we’re going to do this, we want to do it right. But some of the ways people are responding is really disparaging. If you want to turn us down, that’s fine, but to attack us because you don’t approve of our confidence is shitty.  

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Even just the language people use is frustrating. We’ve been called “entitled” by potential sponsors simply for asking for sponsorship. We’ve gotten similar reactions from people locally who think that we’re being too aggressive in pursuing sponsorship, even though the same people also admit that racing is expensive. We’ve had people tell us we should wait to form a team until after we know we like racing and have proven ourselves. Frankly I don’t think a men’s team would be called “entitled” for asking for support, or told they should wait to be a “real” team until they’ve reached some unspecified level of legitimacy. We already know we love riding and racing track bikes. If a company or person doesn’t feel that’s enough to warrant supporting us, that’s fine, but there’s no need to insult and discourage us on top of it.

ANNA: Given all these obstacles, why are you still excited, especially since you’ve never done it before?

ZOË: Oh my gosh, so many things. A lot of the excitement comes from being able to combine three things that we really love which are riding bikes fast, hanging out with women who are important to us, and having fun poking at this uncomfortableness people have in talking about menstruation. And then you add in the fact that this is an athletic activity, which—and I think this is the case with a lot of cyclists—isn’t something most of us have a background in. So the fact that we can turn something we already love into actual performance and training and working hard and seeing what we can achieve physically, that’s just really exciting! Sports are fun, it turns out!

ANNA: Why did you choose period stigma as your social mission?

ZOË: It started as a reactionary joke about the Fleshlight-sponsored Red Hook Crit team last year. It was like, “Oh, you’re going to do that? Well, we’re going to do a team about periods.” But then we heard about The Homeless Period, which is a movement to donate menstrual supplies to food banks and homeless shelters. People who use those services really need pads and tampons, but because of the stigma we have around menstruation, organizations can’t solicit those donations openly. And that’s terrible. No matter who you are, getting your period kind of sucks, but can you imagine adding on top of that not being able to get the supplies you need because you’re poor or homeless? That’s unacceptable.

It’s amazing to see that we’re finally at a point in the larger cultural conversation about feminism, and about the needs of people who menstruate, that we can do stuff like this and have it out in the open. And I don’t think this would have been possible even last year, and certainly not before that. It is so recent that we’ve started to break through this stigma at all. For us, considering who we are as people and as a team, and the grassroots nature of this cause, it’s a perfect fit.

ANNA: What are your goals within the racing community?

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ZOË: I think for this first year, while we’re getting our feet wet, our main goal is to make sure that there is always a full women’s field at every Kissena race, so that women never have to race in the men’s field. That doesn’t happen often, but it still does occasionally. And that is part of why we are excited to have a big team: if even only half of our team shows up to a race, that’s still five women in the field, five bodies racing.

ANNA: Can you talk about why that’s important- to have your own field?

ZOË: Yeah, definitely. Beyond getting points for category upgrades and things, we want to experience proper competition. We know that female- and male-bodied people have different performance strengths. That’s just how it is. So if we have to race with men, we’re never going to get a well-matched field, which is what we want. We want to work hard, but we also want to feel like we’re achieving something, and that what we’re doing is valuable. If you have men’s fields with a couple of women mixed in, the visual message to spectators is that we’re not competent athletes, that what we’re doing isn’t important, and that we’re not deserving of our own space, which we absolutely are.

And even then, there is ever only one women’s field, a 3/4 field, whereas the men have 1/2/3, 4, and 5. I am certain there are enough folks in New York who could fall in love with track to eventually create a 1/2/3 and 3/4 field, or even just more than one 3/4. It took just a tiny amount of exposure to the velodrome for everyone on the team to get absurdly excited about it. I can speak for myself, and I think a number of my teammates would agree, that to know it’s just you and your bike and your own strength is a really powerful thing. It’s a way to reclaim bullshit messages about how we should be shaped. Track racing changes your body in a lot of ways that don’t conform to ideas of what women’s bodies are supposed to look like.

ANNA: Absolutely, not.

ZOË: And the fact that we can be like, “You know what? This makes me feel powerful. It makes me feel accomplished. I like going fast. If I need to allow my body to change to make me able to do this thing better, then that’s great.” To show that we just love riding bikes so much and to show that it can be a fun, powerful thing. For me, for many of the women on my team, it scratches this itch about connecting with the physicality of our bodies that no other form of cycling does. And we want to share that with other women.

ANNA: I totally feel that.

ZOË: Yeah! And regardless of whether or not women we recruit to the track want to get into that rabbit hole of training, we just want to physically see more women racing. We’re also going to go to Trexlertown to race in their amateur races, and go down and spectate to show support for the pro women and be able to see what our sport is like at its highest level. And, again, getting bodies in the seats, because we want to show that there is an audience for women competing at these levels.

ANNA: It’s totally humbling when you see the real deal. It melts your brain, it’s so exciting. It’s not an easy sport. You get so physically specialized.

ZOË: Yes! I’m really excited to see which of my teammates will kick my ass on the track. And that’s awesome. We’re just so excited to see who ends up doing which events and who manages to get the farthest by whatever measure this season. We haven’t even done it yet and we’re so excited to see what actually happens.

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For more information on Formula Femme

Website:  FormulaFemmeNYC.com

Facebook: Facebook.com/formulafemme

GoFundMe: GoFundMe.com/formulafemme

Try Really Hard

So we have this common saying on the team. It goes something like this…

Person 1: Statement about how hard certain part of the course, race, etc was and how silly they looked trying to overcome it. 

Person 2: But at least we tried really hard!

Person 1 & 2: *highfive in agreement*

This whole conversation seems pretty inconsequential, right?

And in some ways, it might be, however the idea of celebrating coming in dead last during a scratch race, crashing a million times on a cross course, or having the least graceful dismount/mount ever because, in the end, you tried really hard is important and valuable – especially to a growing women’s field. Let’s take a moment to break that idea down:

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The face of someone who wasn’t having the best race ever, but still tried really hard. And looked fly as hell.

There’s no shame in trying hard.

Maybe you keep getting dropped in every single criterium you do. Perhaps you feel like everyone else is way faster at technical cross courses than you, or that your standing sprint is awful. Maybe you felt like you turned yourself inside out during a race, only to still miss that coveted podium spot. That’s okay. It’s important to recognize weaknesses as long as you don’t dwell on them, rely on them for excuses, or allow them to control your life. Regardless of how any race or training ride goes, trying really hard not only makes you a better rider, but also increases the excitement and overall skill level in the entire field. Imagine watching a race on the velodrome where everyone is only giving 60% effort because they know that there’s one fast rider who is going to crush everyone. Sounds pretty boring and uninspiring, right? Imagine that same race, except now everyone is giving 100% and trying to reel in that fast rider. That’s the race that’s going to motivate racers to keep coming back, continue to train hard, and progress as athletes. Even if no one is able to catch up to that super fast rider, at least everyone gave it their all, and that’s something to always be proud of. In short, trying really hard, even if you “fail,” is an achievement worthy of both praise and celebration.

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These women got second, third, and fourth place respectively. They were all trying really hard.

Dedication is the only thing you can control.

In a sport rife with crashes, inclement weather, malfunctioning equipment, illness, and injury, training and racing goals can easily become derailed. That’s why, in many ways, your dedication is the only thing you can control. It’s important and empowering to set goals for yourself and work to achieve those goals. Do those intervals you hate, go out of your way to ride up that hill on your commute home, eat more vegetables than you normally do, or go on training rides with cyclists who are faster than you. Even if you can’t complete that workout or are totally exhausted by the end of that ride, (or hate vegetables for that matter), dedicating yourself to something you are passionate about is brave. Even if you go into that season or race feeling like you’re still not where you want to be, knowing that you’ve been trying really hard is something to be proud of.

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This rider tried so hard that her legs got bloody.

That being said, we all have those races or rides where nothing is going your way and you feel that internal flame of effort die out. You might give up and switch into “survival” mode, in which your main goal becomes to just finish or find the nearest point where you can quit. As long as it doesn’t become a habit, that’s perfectly okay. We all sometimes get “beat down” by exhaustion, tough courses, or hard races. Acknowledge it in that moment and make a pact with yourself that, despite feeling negative about your performance right now, you’ll keep trying really hard next time.

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Trying really hard isn’t always pretty.

You think about you more than anyone else thinks about you.

This isn’t to say that we’re all self-absorbed assholes, it’s just that most of us are too busy working, volunteering, spending time with family and friends, and riding our bikes to worry too much about what’s going on in everyone else’s life. Think about it – when’s the last time you finished a race and immediately thought, “I wonder how so-and-so did?” Unless it’s a friend who you know was trying really hard to podium or was particularly concerned about this race for any number of reasons, chances are they aren’t your first thought (if they are, however, kudos to you for being a loyal and concerned friend!). Next time you leave a race feeling less than stellar about your performance, just remember that everyone else is probably thinking about their own race too, not yours.

Support other women who try really hard.

So you’ve made a pact with yourself to dedicate yourself to your passion (which we sincerely hope is cycling related), and try really hard. Awesome! Remember that not every rider celebrates trying hard like you do and sometimes they might need reminders that trying really hard is about as rad as it gets. Support your fellow cyclists by congratulating them on their efforts, whether they’re on the podium, DFL, or DNF and strive to make our wonderful sport as welcoming and enthusiastic as it gets. From our perspective, more is more. The more women, races, and posi feelings there are, the better cycling becomes for everyone involved.

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Pain faces = trying SO hard. Photo by: Blake Kelley